The Challenge is working!

I am so happy and content that my Challenge is working!  I don’t know what it is about my last post and coming across that word, but it is good and I feel happy and excited and peaceful about winning the Challenge and being able to change my thoughts!

D has come walking with me the last few days and that has been fantastic!  We have found a great path that is also quite challenging as it goes down into a gully and back up again.  Doing those hills everyday will quickly bring my fitness back up again!  It is also a lovely walk surrounded by trees and paddocks and horses!  A little heaven of nature!

There have been a few challenges this week to  my peaceful thinking.  Number one was Christmas shopping!  Of course!  I was grateful to quickly realise I didn’t need to be rushing around like an idiot and wanting to get it done as quickly as possible.  Doing it slowly and peacefully also worked and allowed me to enjoy it in the process!  And I am guessing took about the same time!

Yesterday, with some dramas in the household, was more difficult.  And it took some time to find peaceful thoughts once more.  But they did come – eventually!  Some deep breathing and letting go of thoughts and emotions gradually brought things around again.  Phewww!

One thing I am really grateful for is finally get out my oil burner and beginning to burn my aromatherapy oils again.  I have been wanting to do it for so long, but just never quite got around to it.  Yesterday was the day, thanks to needing to remove the smell of meat from the kitchen before our vegetarian friend came over!  D suggested it and I went “yes, yes”  finally!!!

I find the process of lighting the burner, choosing the oil and then smelling the aromas to be so therapeutic.  It will definitely help in reconnecting with my spirituality and continuing to work on being centred and at peace.

Thank you!

The Challenge

I’m struggling a little bit today.  Not with peaceful thoughts in general, but with persistent, compulsive thoughts in my most challenging area.  Food.

Fortunately for my health, and unfortunately for my ‘in the moment’ sanity, I can’t indulge.  So, this is my opportunity to try and conquer instead.

Step One – come to this blog!

Step Two – take the dog for a walk.

Step Three – look at things in a different way.

Thinking of this as a challenge somehow puts a different aspect on it.
A challenge!  Aha!  I like the concept.

I don’t have a competitive nature very much, but I may just be able to find it in me for this.  I can feel my eyes tightening, my adrenalin starting to pump and my mind going “you wanna take me on??!!”  A challenge.  Hmmm.  Interesting.

Off to do Step Two!

[This time it’s one of my own pictures!]

 

Christmas morning. Acceptance.

Last time I was in the grips of thoughts that were unhealthy for me, I promised myself that I would come here first.  It has taken me a little while to remember that today, but here I am.

And I am already feeling better.

As I write, I remember my goals of doing just one thing at a time.  After this, I will do my hair and make up in preparation for heading out to the family Christmas dinner.  Then I will do the dishes.  Step by step.

Sending love to my recent activities is helping me to let go.
Saying Thank you is helping me to acknowledge that, in some way, I am trying to nurture myself and that I am thankful for being nurtured.

I am so tired today.  I woke myself up early.  The day is dreary.  The excitement of the my most wonderful Christmas morning in many years has subdued.  And I have collapsed.

But as I write this, I begin to feel peaceful.  And I begin to allow myself to feel tired without guilt, but with contentment and peaceful acceptance.

And I don’t need to turn to other things for comfort.  I simply accept the moment.

I am just about to sign off when I can feel my mind finding the peace.  I allow it to fight.  No resistance.  No pushing back.  The thoughts flow through me and within me.  Acceptance.

 

A summary.

My thoughts over the last couple of days have continued to evolve into peaceful ones.  There have been some challenges in our household, yet I still have maintained a sense of peace throughout the shifting emotions.  I am grateful.

I have been thinking about my thoughts since beginning this blog less than a week ago and feel the need to create a summary of the journey so far.

I’m beginning to connect with my serenity, calm, inner knowledge and intuition, with my centre, with Spirit.

I’m beginning to source the knowledge that I have gained over the 41 years of my life.

I’m beginning to find peace in the moment, to happily move from one task to the next, to be content in every second.

I am remembering more and more to direct love and thankfulness to the difficult thoughts and situations in my life – both current and also in releasing the recurring memories of my past.

I am remembering not to push back and strengthen the unwanted thoughts that can pervade my mind.  Instead I am accepting them and being grateful for them.  I can feel them beginning to take a healthy place in my life.

I like this sentence from a recent post - “Simple, pure love will always create simplicity and peace in our lives.”

Moving from one task to the next has been much easier today.  Perhaps it is just the day or something in the air, maybe it’s even my biorhythms (not that I have thought about that kind of thing in many years)!!  Perhaps it is that my mindset is shifting.  I have enjoyed (mostly!) the jobs that I have done.  It hasn’t been a struggle.  Not like it was on this day!  I even enjoyed cooking and that is saying something for me!! 

 

It is a good feeling to be creating this energy around me, even if my mood isn’t one of joy! 

I am grateful for this summary consolidating my peaceful thoughts.

 

Thank You

Yesterday saw me saying thank you in my head a lot!

There were certainly thank you’s for the good things that happened.  But mostly, it was thank you for the things that I’m not happy with.  I thanked all these things for the role they have, and have had, in my life and for helping me become the person that I am.  I thanked them for helping me to develop the good qualities that I value – compassion, understanding, inner strength, kindness, depth.

Surprisingly, I have found it relatively easy to thank the troublesome inner voice that leads me down the path I would prefer not to go.   And while it is early days, I am finding that it is making a big difference.  I am amazed to find myself happy with my choices no matter what they are.  But more than anything, I am amazed to find that in just two days, by not pushing against that voice, my choices are changing.  I am discovering that I don’t need to go down those paths.  The overwhelming, irresistible compulsions are dissipating.

I have read time and time again that we continue to have the same problems until we finally learn the lessons we need to learn.  I have never understood why I have continued to have the same challenges in my life.  I believe now though, that this is finally the lesson I have needed to learn.  To love and accept ALL that is in my life.  For it is all part of my Spirit and all apart of everything.

I was feeling very physically uncomfortable performing yesterday.  So I gave thanks for being allowed this experience.  And suddenly, I was smiling.  Oo, look what I get to experience!  I am understanding more.  And suddenly things were much better.

The hardest one  though, was to begin thanking my head for taking me down into old old memories.  You know those memories that you kick yourself about, wish had never happened, feel angry about, get upset about, memories that can be twenty, thirty years old. 

I had one of those memories and I realised I was going to have to start thanking these experiences as well.  Boy, was that hard.  Really hard, Hugely hard!!  But I did it and it was a relief.  And I realised what I had learnt from that experience.

I think this particular one will keep biting me for sometime yet.  There are a lot of memories!!  Yet, I am grateful to have made a start.

Could it be this is one of the many understandings and aspects of knowledge floating around in my head that are finally coalescing??? Am I finally learning the important lessons of my life?

Thursday

I say thank you to the voice in my head that gave me the compulsion to eat today.

I say thank you to that voice for the role it has had in my life, for helping me become the person I am today.

I send love to that voice in gratitude and peace.

One step at a time now, I get up and begin to do the things that will make our home clutter free, organised, tidy, peaceful – our home.

• * Put the groceries away …
• * Put up more Christmas decorations to bring the celebration of the season into our  home…
• * Begin, one item at a time, to prepare the spare room for the arrival of D’s Mum next week.

 

One step at a time, peacefully changing and growing.

 

I had a great appointment with Queen Naturo today (more of the details of that in our conception blog).  I told her about this blog and was most surprised to find myself giving her the web address.  I don’t tell anyone about my blogs!!  Except D of course.  Yet, she and King Acupunt know SO much about me, the ins and outs of my life, that there probably isn’t much in here she doesn’t know already!

It was great to connect with a real life person about this journey of creating peaceful thoughts and sending love and acceptance to the challenging areas of my life.  And it was great to have that person respond in, not only a positive and ‘yea, I get it’ way, but to also work with it and make it better.

QN’s insight was the knowledge that if something is pushing on you and you push back, then that something will only push harder again.  It is only by letting go and no longer pushing at it that you can release it.

I love the congruent way of looking at this.  The same thing, but a different perspective, and suddenly it gains so much more depth!  If you are reading this - Thanks QN!

 

Directing love towards the difficult.

One step at a time this morning.  One step.

Getting up.  Putting my slippers on.  D is making eggs for breakfast.  Feed the cats.  Check my email.  Finding peace in the actions.

The indoor plants need watering.  I don’t want to do it.  Just pick up the first plant.  Peace in the result.

I need to do the dishes.  Ohhhhh.  Just put the water in the sink.  Making things clean and tidy and peaceful.

Accepting my mood.  Finding peace in the cycles of life.

I was reminded today of the effect of placing love into every situation.  Feeling love and gratitude for the challenges that we face in our lives.  Knowing that feeling love and thankfulness for these things takes away their power and frees us from their bondage.

There are reasons for all things in our lives.  Things to learn, growth to achieve.  We need the hardship to achieve these lessons.  But giving in to them, giving them their ultimate power, putting negative emotions into them, simply traps us into their ongoing cycle.

My goal today in trying to find peace within, is to feel love for the challenging thoughts I have.  To be grateful for the role they have had in my life, to be at peace with them.

Will this fade their negative power?  I believe it will.  I believe it will put them to the back corner of my consciousness.  Love and kindness and healthy support and caring will always come first.  Simple, pure love will always create simplicity and peace in our lives.

And so it shall be.

 

Peaceful Jobs

The first thing I have been doing toward creating peace in my life has been patiently doing jobs around the house.

I am on holidays at the moment (yipppeee!!), and there are so many things that need doing – the many jobs that you just don’t get time to do whilst working.  Oftentimes I just don’t want to do some of these jobs, so the last few days I have simply been patiently and peacefully moving from one job to the next, staying in the moment and being happy with what I am doing.  No rush, no obligation, staying peaceful. 

It has worked well and I have gotten a lot done (although my list of things ‘to do’ seems to have gotten bigger and bigger!!).  But most importantly, I have enjoyed working around the house and ‘pottering’.  Some of this ‘pottering’ has been big jobs and for a couple of those I have been grateful to have had some outside help and motivation.  But a lot of it has been lots of little jobs, stuff that you go ‘I’ll get to that later’.  Well later is here, one later at a time!

And if I don’t get to what I had planned to do, well that’s ok, I’ll get there next time.  I’ve been really happy doing it this way.  At peace with it.

I am really hoping I can continue this when I do go back to work.  I am working a few less hours next year and perhaps, just perhaps, I can establish a new peaceful pattern now and be able to continue with it once I am working again.

Today, however, was a non-productive day. I just couldn’t get motivated.  My thoughts were not peaceful and there didn’t seem to be much I could do about it.

Next time I will turn here  instead of towards other things and hope that I can change things around.

Introduction

Lets get the negatives out of the way right from the start and move on to purely positives…

This is NOT a weight loss blog.
This is not a blog sourcing quotes and inspirations from outside of myself.

This is a blog for me to gather my thoughts into a healthy, healing, centered, in the moment, way of thinking.
It’s a blog for me to find serenity.
It’s a blog for me to find peace in the moment, to happily move from one task to the next, to be content in each and every second.

I’ve spent a lifetime gathering information, reading a gazillion books, having all kinds of therapy sessions and spiritual healings, attending a multitude of weight loss programs…

I’ve got information and understanding coming out of my pores!!

But, where is it all?  It’s all flitting around my head somewhere, a random thought here and understanding there.  But it’s not cohering.

I remember around the time that I first met D, I had found such a serenity.  I loved that feeling.  I want it back!!
I remember one particular instance when we first started ‘hanging out’.  We were bushwalking in a most beautiful conservation park and I sat down on a wall of an old ruin, shut my eyes and felt such peace and centering.  I felt so calm and  in touch with my spirit, with the real me.  I can feel it now simply writing about it.

This blog is about bringing these feelings into my every day life once more.
It’s about sourcing the knowledge I have absorbed.
It is about tapping in to my own inner knowledge and intuition.
It is about bringing forth the true me – calm, peaceful, in touch with my centre, my spirit, with” Spirit”.

And I know (hope!) that by doing this, my goals and dreams will come to fruition, no doubt changed along the way simply because of the journey! 
I seek to conceive our child.
I seek to discover a physicality that I am happy with and comfortable in.

… To my new blog and to discovering!