Becoming grounded and more peaceful

One of the advantages of being sick in bed, is that you get to catch up on blogging.  I have really been enjoying doing my old routine of blog reading and commenting.  It's like returning home to an old friend!

Life has been extremely busy the last couple of months and there simply hasn't been room in my head for blogging.  But the last couple of weeks, I have started getting the itch to return to my journey of creating peaceful thoughts. 

While this peaceful goal is always in the back of my mind, I haven't been so active with it and I want to be again.

I have made some great progress in the last two weeks.  If you have been a reader of mine for a while, you will know that my biggest challenge in life is dealing with food addiction.  Two weeks ago, I began to realise more clearly how I live outside of my body so much.  Like my soul resides in my head and not the rest of me.

I came across a sentence in something I was reading.  For the life of me, I can't remember what I was reading though!  Anyway...  it said that it is not the bodies job to find the soul, but the souls purpose to discover the body. 

This was one of those lightbulb moments for me!

I have often felt ungrounded within myself and have been even more aware of it lately.  So, I began to work with imagery of sending my soul down to my belly, to try and feel my soul filling up  my arms and legs.

For brief seconds in time, it worked.  I could feel a fire in my belly, I felt grounded, I felt secure.  And for those brief moments in time, all my food craving thoughts disappeared.  Completely.

But I couldn't keep it there.

So, when I went for my next ayuvedic treatment, I talked to him about it.  And he worked on merging my energies together.  He spoke of how my energies were going in two different directions and he brought them back into sync.

Now, although I have to think about it all the time and practice the imagery, I can keep my soul residing in my body.  Sounds weird, I know, but it's incredible.  Every time I centre myself in this way, I no longer crave food.  I feel more secure in myself.  I feel more peaceful.

The last week has been good.  My thoughts have been more peaceful.  I've been able to control my eating.  And I don't feel so threatened by the world.  I like the fire in my belly, the sensation of being grounded and completely "here".  I feel hopeful that this is the beginning of a new phase in my life - one that I have been trying to reach for so many years.  Time will tell.