Focus on the goal.

Another thing that is really helping me stay peaceful with my food addiction thoughts came from an interview with an up and coming singer.  He spoke of how he met Madonna and some advice she gave him in regard to the fame that has come in his life.  She said - see your goal, stay focused on that, put blinkers on so you don't get distracted by all the stuff around you, stay focused on that goal.

That has really stuck with me.  The goal I see, is myself in my wedding dress.  The image is very small, far in the distance with a path running towards it.  There is nothing else.  To the sides of the path is just blackness, no distraction, no compulsions, nothing but the image at the end of the path.

This helped me today when, for a brief moment, I wanted to go to the shops because I am so sick with a bronchial infection that I wanted the comfort of food.  I saw the goal and all food addiction desires disappeared.  It's quite staggering.  Instead I realised I am actually hungry and I can prepare myself something healthy.  A simple concept that has always been so difficult for me in the past.  Yet today, right at this minute, it feels like the most natural thing in the world.

In the past, it was always me trying to distract myself from compulsive desires.  Trying to pretend that they weren't there.  This time, they are actually disappearing from deep within me.  And all that is left is the goal and the desire for healthy eating and achieving my goals.

I imagine the fire in my belly that I spoke of in my last post, my soul residing at my core and I feel complete.  There is no hollowness that needs filling, just completeness and grounding.

And my thoughts become peaceful.  There is no fighting myself as there is only voice!

Yesterday I also felt a new feeling showing me how things have changed right at this moment.  In the past, it has always been a rare moment for me to have peace from food addiction.  A  rare moment when serenity and healthy eating were the dominant part of me.  Yesterday, I felt a craving and went "wow, thats the first time I have felt that today.  The rest of this day has been easy, 'normal'"

I can't tell you how surprising and new that it is.  How wonderful it was to acknowledge.

Peaceful thoughts are starting to become more and more common!